1. Wednesday, July 31, 2002

    interview with meesh: 

    hey, m’here

    xxsosaxx: good

    xxsosaxx: how was your dinner?

    meesh: mmmm, so good, Hot and Sour soup

    xxsosaxx: make it yourself?

    meesh: yeah

    meesh: it’s pretty easy

    meesh: what did you have?

    xxsosaxx: i make chicken breasts, baked potato and peas

    meesh: so all american!

    xxsosaxx: if i knew how to cook anything else i would

    meesh: I’d love to cook for ya sometime

    xxsosaxx: whats your specialty?

    meesh: some guy from the personals is trying to chat me up right now

    meesh: I have my own specialty I guess, it’s fusion

    meesh: Asian Spanish Middle Eastern

    meesh: California

    meesh: alot of fresh herbs and vegetables

    xxsosaxx: whats the best way for a guy from the personals to chat you up?

    meesh: have a freaking profile

    meesh: I’m like, :Do you talk to strangers on the street

    meesh: with bags on their heads?

    meesh: me, neither

    xxsosaxx: good point

    meesh: do you?

    xxsosaxx: i think guys just feel like theres not much special about them that you could put on a profile

    meesh: chat up girls in the personals

    xxsosaxx: no, i havent had the pleasure of doing that yet

    meesh: there is someone for everyone

    meesh: noone is as cool as they think

    meesh: or as they are on paper

    meesh: except you maybe

    xxsosaxx: flattery will get you everywhere

    meesh: so it seems

    xxsosaxx: i went on a date with the biggest tallest girl in hs cuz she called me cutie all the time

    meesh: oooh, call me Sweetheart, and I melt

    meesh: it is weird!

    meesh: or , baby

    xxsosaxx: baby is doable

    xxsosaxx: sweetheart would seem too much like humphry bogart

    meesh: yeah, well there was this one guy, who said it

    meesh: the first guy to ever say it

    xxsosaxx: did he say it slowly and ironically or smoothly?

    meesh: smooth

    meesh: mmmmmm

    meesh: usually with the puppy dog eyes

    meesh: and an I’m Sorry

    xxsosaxx: how tall are you meesh?

    meesh: 5′ 10″ I think

    meesh: last time I checked

    meesh: hopefully I am not shrinking

    meesh: taller in the winter

    meesh: you?

    xxsosaxx: the same

    meesh: yeah?

    xxsosaxx: im telling you, we are strange mirror images

    xxsosaxx: except my side is cracked

    meesh: your side?

    meesh: I am kind of milk chocolately

    xxsosaxx: youre the gorgeous graceful wonderful side

    meesh: I am a Libra, I am always both sides

    meesh: you should know that

    meesh: it is a constant struggle

    xxsosaxx: what sides are you struggling between recently?

    meesh: I try realllly HARD


    meesh: oops caps

    meesh: It makes you feel more alive

    meesh: from great sadness comes great joy

    meesh: I am glad to just be feeling at all

    xxsosaxx: cut off your feelings, did you?

    meesh: do I?

    meesh: do you?

    xxsosaxx: you say that youre glad to be feeling

    xxsosaxx: yes

    meesh: are we in therapy?

    meesh: :))

    meesh: I would say

    xxsosaxx: im not in therapy but tons of people i know are

    meesh: no I mean you and I now?

    xxsosaxx: oh

    xxsosaxx: na

    meesh: we are our own support group!

    xxsosaxx: oh, ok then

    xxsosaxx: but libras are bad at being shoulders to cry on

    meesh: No, ok, I will say that I prefer to be in charge of how I feel, and act, and what I do, and that is not always possible in a relationship, inevidibly, you have to give up control

    meesh: capiche?

    meesh: you think?

    xxsosaxx: i wrote a poem where i said, the only way to fall in love is to fall

    meesh: So many times, I was not in control of what was happening to me,

    meesh: you know, it is good to feel stable

    meesh: relationships are turmoil

    meesh: hopefully not everyones

    xxsosaxx: have you ever been in a smooth one?

    meesh: yeah, a little over a year ago

    meesh: it was surprisingly smooth

    meesh: that is why it was sooo fucking hard when it just evaporated in front of me!

    meesh: nothing is certain

    meesh: is it?

    xxsosaxx: death

    meesh: taxes

    xxsosaxx: pee

    meesh: speaking of..

    meesh: want an Amstel

    meesh: ??

    xxsosaxx: sure

    meesh: mmm, Smallville is on

    meesh: notice how I am always like mmmmmmmmm…?

    meesh: I am a sigher

    xxsosaxx: thats nice

    xxsosaxx: its sweet

    meesh: when I eat, too man

    meesh: my ex could not stand it

    meesh: he is crazy though

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