1. Thursday, January 2, 2003

    she said her name was lana 

    i told her i didnt believe her. the torch lights threw dramatic shadows across her face. she toweled off the grime and sweat and soot and dna i kept waiting for a penis to pop out from down there but it never did.

    her tail flicked around as she dragged a comb through her hair and when she was finished she sat down with me.

    i hate you, tony.
    join the club.
    you disgust me.
    youre not the first.
    i only fuck you because it keeps my mind off of whats going on here.
    whats going on here?
    misery.
    just look away.
    but its everywhere.
    pretend its just wallpaper.
    cant you hear the screams?
    all i hear is “hells bells.”
    where do you hear that?
    it comes on after “runnin with the devil.”
    are you insane?
    how come i only see you here at the sex palace?
    cuz i work here.
    did you have a lot of sex when you were alive?
    about the average amount.
    whats the average amount?
    twice a week.
    did you have a boyfriend?
    i never didnt have a boyfriend.
    i woulda thought you woulda had more sex than just twice a week.
    at first, yeah, but after a while is slows down.
    how old were you when you died?
    25.
    how many guys had you done it with?
    7.
    do you wish you woulda done it more?
    yes.
    do you wish you woulda done it with more guys?
    a few.
    why didnt you?
    dumb. i didnt want people to think i was a ho.
    people like who?
    i dont know. me.
    what woulda made you a ho?
    i could have been a ho so easy.
    are you a ho here?
    kinda.
    how many guys do you do it with here a day?
    three or four.
    isnt that ho-ish?
    sorta, but it’s work, and it makes people happy to watch.
    am i the best guy you ever did it with?
    next question.
    am i the biggest?
    not even close.
    do any famous guys down here?
    napolean.
    napolean?
    yeah, they flamethrew him almost right away he was so bad.
    ever do chicks?
    nah, thats creeps me out.