1. Monday, August 4, 2003

    im procrastinating again. 

    i dont know why this time. now i know exactly what i want to write to the big time web site i want to write about how the red sox can win the world series.

    usually the idea part is the hardest part to writing a column and on the busblog you dont even need an idea, you just need a feeling. something. anything. some sort of motion to get you in motion and as karisa has taught me, a body in motion stays in motion, and a mind full of shit stays full of shit.

    karisa jim morrisoned into the desert this weekend as did bunnie as did clipper girls cousin and oddly they all went to different deserts.

    meanwhile this super hot girl came over looking amazing, smelling clean, hair driving me crazy with sexiness and didnt move when i tried to kiss her until i got right up to her and she curled up like a potato bug

    i retreated and she’d smile.

    id attack again and shed defend herself.

    claiming she couldnt spend the night.

    looking at her watch, calling her hot girlfriends, pretending to be interested.

    there is a little bit of mind reading necessary to dating and i suppose thats the reason im not interested in teaching the red sox how to win the world series, something they havent been able to do since 1918 ad.

    because mind reading is more interesting to write about than breaking curses, making dreams come true, pulling the hearts out of the yankees and showing it to them before they die in a quivvering heap.

    cute girls do get away with murder, but im so old, america, that i dont have very much patience for even the cute ones. especially in hollywood, where you cant flick a spent match without poking a supermodel in the eye with it.

    i fall in love about every two blocks.

    even on the bus theres your choice of all sorts of wonders.

    so i dont know if this girl thinks im going to break her heart or if the world is about to go oops upside her head but all i know is i saw a lady in a wheelchair today on the subway, and i wondered what it was like for her to get prognosised with whatever got her into that wheelchair.

    and when i day dream the whole story hits me fast and the details fill themselves in even faster. depth is created. nuances. dialogue. background details.

    i thought about what it must have been like to get told that you couldnt walk any more and i thought of the things you couldnt do and the first thing i thought was i couldnt wrestle with the right girl in the right way in the right places on the best nights.

    so this girl was sitting on my couch and im thinking tick tock baby this is fun but life goes so fast it makes you wonder if its a race but one thing it isnt is is a fakeout game of lets watch the grass grow.

    it made me remember the games i had to deal with a long time ago that nobody won.

    theres lots of games i like playing but peek a boo or even advanced peek a boo dont do it for me the way they used to.

    i should be nice to her. nicer to her. im not the easiest person to eat pizza with.

    and im still procrastinating.

    so the sox will have to wait

    another lousy day.

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