1. Thursday, November 20, 2003

    some days i want to smack your face 

    but then there are days like these, when you’re waiting on the bus, filming trees, when i say oh shucks this guy really IS tuned in to something bigger than the projection of his ego. i like you on street corners…

    earl grey


    yeah, i get fucked up comments sometimes too. people have no sense. people dont know how to say things in a nice and polite way.

    i wonder why they have to be that way and then i think its maybe cuz theyre bummed out that i bash their political party, or their favorite talk show host, or their favorite blogger named drudge.

    or maybe they just weren’t raised right.

    for example, how is smacking me going to do anything but get you ten smacks back? how is it going to teach me a lesson about my alleged ego?

    i hate anonymous comment-leavers cuz theyre gutless, and gutless people shouldnt be listened to because theyre probably lying.

    people who are telling the truth, ESPECIALLY in a blog, or in the comments of the blog, have nothing to fear.

    liars need to worry.

    and people who think that they can run around and smack people seriously need to worry.

    let me tell you a few things about my ego, busbloggers. i have none.

    i have zero self-esteem.

    dont take that the wrong way, its not a woe-is-me zero self esteem, its a “im not good enough to make it to the next level, but i can kick your ass” thing.

    it’s twisted.

    one reason i like blogger so much is because i get to use it to write better, to practice.

    i think i would be a great arts and entertainment section editor. i was a great editor. i love bringing people together and thinking up story ideas and touching up stories and managing the process.

    as a writer i think im a not-boring blogger, but i think im way too punkrock for the mass media, and thats fine with me. it would be great if somewhere in journalism there might be a little sliver that i could fit into, but if not then cool.

    but i have no ego. i think im ok.

    i am shocked when people say otherwise and im supershocked when i see all the hits that i get.

    ive said this before.

    i’ll probably say it again.

    meanwhile, if any of you have anything to say, use your name, link your email or web page, and if you feel like smacking me while im waiting for a bus, if i was you, id think twice, cuz i might be xbi after all.

    raymi + xeni + blamb