i dont know why this shit isnt on pay per view. or have the counties sell the feeds to court tv and get a cut of the advertising. people are so lame. nobody knows how to make a buck. only way they know how to fleece america is through speed traps and shaking down the poor.
im not happy to be here today. its cloudy. i dont like seeing LA like this. it deserves more than this. i also hate the fact that we have a big meeting today, every tuesday. its ok if its really a tuesday but because we got yesterday off its a monday. nobody wants to go into a meeting on monday when theres nothing to talk about. it just cuts into the day. it ruins the day to be honest. but still it happens. like clockwork.
nothing good in my life happens like clockwork. maybe i should make sure that Lick happens like clockwork then. stoke the world every sunday night before the Simpsons.
pretty girl just asked me if i had hella writers sending in shit for Lick and i said yeah. she said wow. i said i only did it to impress her, to make her think i was cool. she said she Did think i was cool. i said see.
then she sent me a topless pic.
karisa went to vegas this weekend. the whiners at the View are in vegas right now. why am i not in vegas right now. why am i here. why arent i traveling the world making everyones damn day. why am i sitting here just getting older and older.
why must i compare myself to bukowski who didnt do shit until he started writing at 35 and didnt really get published till he was 40. i got published right outta school. poems just like him. i would put the rejection letters on my kitchen walls. i thought i would line the walls with the little half sheets but before i could begin to feel sorry for myself i started getting acceptance letters. and even checks.
then the connecticut poetry review misspelled some of my best shit and i swore i would never write for anyone else again.
unless they paid serious money to fuck my shit.
i have the most wrinkled shirt on in the world.
a pretty girl said she liked my hair cut as she walked past and stumbled on her own feet. super cute but my buddy has dibs.