1. Wednesday, February 18, 2004

    i just dont want anyone to think im not grateful. 

    the internet has given me everything. right now im listening to Eamon’s “fuck it” which… well… how are you gonna hear that on the radio. at work we have itunes. lots of people are on it. i listen to music i wouldnt normally listen to OR download like billy joel and thats a true story that someone asked me to turn it down. piano man. im 110 years old but im still not so old that i would ask someone to turn down billy joel. i think its funny.

    today was hard for nearly everyone i talked to. its earlier than 11pm and my truest is asleep. one guy asked me to come in to his office today so he could vent. i dont blame him. i had nobody to vent to today. i had you. i did vent. i do need a new gig. this one is so over. at first i thought i was gonna get killed or fired or comfortable. now im just afraid its just going to age me overnight.

    bowled today, next to two super hot girls. well one super hot girl. she was jamaican. as dark as the darkest chocolate youve ever seen. curves that were so natural and nice. tas for you and me. but not a black girls butt which bothered me a little but that skin. you wanted to take a semi sweet yet bitter bite out of it. and her hair started back on her head. nice forehead. did the complete curve before the hair. it was long and superblack. she had a gap sweater on. tight jeans.

    at first i thought she was with the nba star. but no she was with the normal looking jamaican brotha. the pale redhead white girl was there with the shooting guard. i didnt care. she didnt seem to be sitting next to him. shes mad at him travis k said and i said shes not into him. thats not her man. he said how do you know. i said cuz im her man. and i waited for her to go to the bathroom or have a smoke or get a drink. but first jamaica bought a round and then number nine went out. never was she alone.

    what would i have said?

    i woulda lied and said she was the hottest girl in the bowling alley. seriously i would have said that i want to take her bowling at a real bowling alley would she come with me. and she woulda said yes and i woulda said right now and she woulda laughed and i woulda said ok how about now then.

    way hotter babe is coming over right now. might be parking her car right now. she says she loves it when i let my aries side out and vent and i said i dont have an aries side and she said oh yeah you do remember that time you ripped me apart for being late and i was all oops/

    below is my favorite collection of poems. i will keep it up one more day, and then take it down around lunch time.

    today i wore my 1908 cubs hat. theres this mechanic that i see on rainy days and we talk cubs baseball and he and i ran into each other in the ammo locker and he was all and i was all and we were gonna high five

    but instead we hugged.

    still hasnt sunk in

    the cubs have greg maddux

    dougie gyro + wormhog + bloopy