1. Monday, November 29, 2004

    2004 anna awards 

    best female blogger

    raymi, toronto, canada

    listen up gossip queers

    august, 2004

    listen up gossip queers

    it’s none of your damn business

    you wanna know, fucking email me then

    don’t stir the pot by saying this that the other and assuming they wants to lay you

    you want knives in my back or not, you fucking delivered them

    i don’t have time for this mickey mouse bullshit

    any friggin’ more

    just remember what it was like in the beginning

    before you ever came here

    before we met

    i moved to toronto and linked everyone and now i can’t be with you’s all ‘cos it brings me too much stress too much drama and too much pain to hear lies and gossip and rumors

    i don’t want any part of it anymore

    we can be friends and talk about the good ole gays when things were clever and angst-filled

    don’t go all over the internet getting your link above mine just because you think it makes me angry

    it’s kinda laughable

    that you’re still like that

    don’t go around commenting linking and fake-loving

    ‘cos i know what it’s really all about behind the scenes where “the magic happens”

    a blog is a blog is a blog

    you fully admitted you ripped me off from the start and this is the respect i get now

    i took down ALL links and would link you gladly in a post and you know it but your ego won’t allow you to ask and you don’t even have to

    i have far too many emotions over it right now to do anything about it

    you knocked me up, i had an abortion and now i have an iud that is tearing my cervix apart

    i never wanted to have an abortion and i know the hatemail that will come from mentioning it but yeh, not a day goes by that i don’t think about it

    you did yer thing when i was a crazy loon and that shouldn’t have happened

    the abortion had to of happened, all the medications i was on at the time, the thingamaling would of had arms growing out of it’s eye-sockets

    and now i think i won’t go to heaven

    because of us not because of you because i know that i am far from blameless in all of this

    i chose my road i chose my path and all paths eventually lead to heaven but right now things are pretty hellish and this bloog of mine is a burden and a blessing sometimes it is one more than the other

    i just want to start fresh

    and i don’t ever plan to forget

    the way

    you looked

    that nite

    raymi + newwaveoake + i think manic