1. Tuesday, February 14, 2006

    well tick tock it dont stop 

    ive told you day after day that every day this month has just been weirder and stranger and worse and better than the next. sometimes in the same hour. sometimes in the same moment.

    sex cant cure it but i had some good sex this month. money cant fix things but ive been rich and poor within the same week. only faith can guide you only the Lord can save you.

    wait, they dont love you like i love you.

    and here it is valentines day, what should be a happy day, what should be a day that a libra man on the scorpio cusp should have five six ladies waiting around the block with candy boxes and pink champagne waiting to see who’ll get picked and be your american idol.

    unsom wants to know about the legal proceeding. i just got off the phone with my attorney and she told me that the case has been officially dropped.

    long story short my landlord wanted to try to figure out a way to kick me out of my apartment but he picked the lamest thing: he picked my satelite dish which is on my porch.

    not only that but he chose to serve me my three day notice while i was on christmas vacation. like a punk.

    he knew that was the right time to do it because i had paid my rent two weeks early because i didnt know if i would be back on the first and i wanted to be a good tenant.

    so even though that dish has been on that porch since before he even bought the place he thought that a jury would side with him that somehow i had broken the lease and he could kick me out and charge double for this stylin bachelor pad.

    so i unloaded two g’s for the best non-entertainmet lawyer in santa monica to tell him that it wasnt a fire hazzard, it wasnt a nuisance, and here were pictures of that dish there in 2001, 2002, 2003 and a year ago. infact heres a letter you wrote tony in 2003 asking him to move his dish then to which he promptly called you and said wtf that things been there since day one.

    oh and heres the directv bills since 2001 showing uninterrupted service and if youre going to say that it used to be somewhere else, then its on you to tell us why on earth he would have it somewhere else only to move it to the porch where it only looks ugly and is inconvienent for chinese food and hotties who want to guess the secret knock for entrance in the middle of the night?

    when his lawyer got all that info he advised his client to drop the case because not only would he lose but he’d have to pay the court case and my lawyer.

    my landlord has taken several of my neighbors to court over the years and usually lost. in fact the only case he won was in kicking out a woman because she had a few more dogs in her pad than legal and im sure hes super proud about that one – kicking out a woman because she couldnt or wouldnt find a place to unload her adult dogs that people generally dont want.

    because of his history i never thought that he would drop the case so i thought by this time i would have won the case and got my two grand back, but sadly he merely dropped it so i get no financial retrobution.

    which is part of the bizarre good news bad news of this month. good news you win bad news now youre broke. for a little while. right before you go to holland and right before you head to austin.

    i know im being tested. i know it because although this should be the most drama in my life its merely the tip of the deadly iceberg and not only is the titanic capable of sinking but mighty casey might strike out.

    and i cant believe that not only has anna suddenly canceled on me, but i dont think i have a back up since everyone and their sister reads the busblog and at this point already has a date or has resigned themselves to forgetting about valentines day.

    and im hungry, and im thirsty, and its seventy degrees outside but sometimes im cold but no i dont have a cold. im just very confused and i feel like people are dissing me even though i put out 100% for them. it’s not a good feeling. didnt i just have a great feeling like days ago? didnt i drive around with the windows down in the middle of the night thinking ok everythings perfect now.

    didnt i take the longest shower from the newest showerhead and listen to my greatest shower mix cd and think just focus on blogging where you are ok, just focus on that and nobody can touch you.

    but people can touch you no matter where you are.

    its fuck n run

    even when i was seventeen

    fuck and run

    … janie said when she was five years old

    there was nothing happening at all

    do you know that the old man who was shot by the vice president just had a heart attack?

    on valentines day.

    shot thru the heart and youre to blame

    thats me on the bottom row third from the left

    some of the girls ive loved before