some said that the lack of the shot

had nothing to do with the bell jar

but they lied. so many lie. so many lie to me.
and trust is everything in my life and
my friends and my xbi partners should know
that when my trust for them wavers
either you should send an sos to the world
or you should reassure me.

anna kournikova came over last night in a dream.
she said
all ur bases belong to us.
she said
do not want
she said
trust not want not

she said when you wake you will feel better than youve felt
for two weeks.
she said when you wake your arm will hurt you where the xbi shot you
and your ass will hurt because im freaky

when i woke i did indeed feel better than ive felt in weeks
that nauseous feeling was gone
but maybe it was cuz i was waking alone
and i hadnt eaten any drugs the night before
and dranken
or hated

however all signs pointed to the second hep shot which wasnt supposed to be related
to the hate and anger and craziness
but suddenly all was well

and member how i told you the other day,
that each morning around noon i wake
and go to my front door
open it and take in the california sun
etc?
well this morning, i did the same thing, and i looked on my front porch
and right in the middle of it where the dogs usually lay giant turds
someone or something had laid
dozens of hot delicious cookies
and a carton of milk in a bucket of ice.
and cups.
with a nice note
to me.

just like how the devil
has disappeared from my bachelor pad.