1. Thursday, September 27, 2007

    some said that the lack of the shot 

    had nothing to do with the bell jar

    but they lied. so many lie. so many lie to me.
    and trust is everything in my life and
    my friends and my xbi partners should know
    that when my trust for them wavers
    either you should send an sos to the world
    or you should reassure me.

    anna kournikova came over last night in a dream.
    she said
    all ur bases belong to us.
    she said
    do not want
    she said
    trust not want not

    she said when you wake you will feel better than youve felt
    for two weeks.
    she said when you wake your arm will hurt you where the xbi shot you
    and your ass will hurt because im freaky

    when i woke i did indeed feel better than ive felt in weeks
    that nauseous feeling was gone
    but maybe it was cuz i was waking alone
    and i hadnt eaten any drugs the night before
    and dranken
    or hated

    however all signs pointed to the second hep shot which wasnt supposed to be related
    to the hate and anger and craziness
    but suddenly all was well

    and member how i told you the other day,
    that each morning around noon i wake
    and go to my front door
    open it and take in the california sun
    well this morning, i did the same thing, and i looked on my front porch
    and right in the middle of it where the dogs usually lay giant turds
    someone or something had laid
    dozens of hot delicious cookies
    and a carton of milk in a bucket of ice.
    and cups.
    with a nice note
    to me.

    just like how the devil
    has disappeared from my bachelor pad.