one of the problems with young girls is you wake up so tired

sorry pc police, young women. at first you think why am i so tired and then youre like oh yeah HER. and shes snoozing away oblivious to everything and you wonder is she passed out cuz shes oh so satisfied or just bored. some things you probably shouldnt concern yourself with cuz deep down whos really satisfied about anything while awake.

when our #1 blog was about to hit 2 million in a month i was already thinking how can we make it go to 3 million, when that happened, how about 3.5 million. tomorrow it will probably go over 4 million and by pure math shouldnt i be twice as happy as when it went over 2? instead im thinking ok how can i get another one of our deals to hit 4. how can i get some hit 1. more more more. thats what she said. except i dont look as cute saying it as when she does in fact sometimes she looks not cute saying it and i wonder do i look not cute saying it too?

i havent been cute in a long time. but i sure am demanding a lot. whats the point of cute? whats the point of more? isnt the point to be satisfied. dont the italians and the french understand 42 the meaning of life? and isnt it all about being satisfied? good friends good family good wines good times. great sunsets, great art, great music, great love making, long naps, long meals, slow dancing, good jokes? great books, funny looks, long lasting materials, reliable relationships?

walked to pick up my bike yesterday and its nearly november but the weather was perfect. people were sitting outside eating ice cream in the nighttime. people were sitting on benches eating tacos. kids were skateboarding over dumpsters. people were waiting for the busses. and i thought this is what its all about.

got my bike and its been so long since id been on it that i felt too big for it. am i still growing or has it shrunk? i used to ride that thing thru westwood during the dot com implosion and now im riding it through the great new depression and i didnt wanna stop riding it last night. i even bought it a new light. why? cuz even perfection needs improvement i guess.