yesterday i learned many things, including what a bardo is

i was in a meeting in beverly hills (i know!) and it seems everyone in LA knows my current situation and has read my letter

in a way thats nice, and in a way its weird b/c it’s actually an awkward and relatively emotional period to suddenly have people know about

but the people have been super cool, especially the strangers who have reached out. and in this meeting i said to be honest i feel like i have a phantom arm.

and this very nice woman said, oh the Bardo is a very natural state for you to be in right now.

i was all whats that? and she said its a Buddhist theory that when something has come to an end theres this grace period.

when i got home i looked it up in the encyclopedia which said please refer to wikipedia this is 2011.

According to Tibetan tradition, after death and before one’s next birth, when one’s consciousness is not connected with a physical body, one experiences a variety of phenomena.

These usually follow a particular sequence of degeneration from, just after death, the clearest experiences of reality of which one is spiritually capable, and then proceeding to terrifying hallucinations that arise from the impulses of one’s previous unskillful actions.

For the prepared and appropriately trained individuals the bardo offers a state of great opportunity for liberation, since transcendental insight may arise with the direct experience of reality, while for others it can become a place of danger as the karmically created hallucinations can impel one into a less than desirable rebirth.

all i gotta say is, that explains so much.

and i will add, im pretty sure yr boy is back.