stages of grief, busblog edition

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shock
denial
the xbi sure has gross ways to get me to come back
explosive anger
confusion
anger at friends pretending it didn’t happen right in front of them
hurt
self medication
self repulsion
maybe I will go back to the xbi
sweet messages from friends who don’t understand
sweet messages from readers like whoa
embarrassment
end the busblog and hide under a rock
just end coolpersonaday
write a screenplay
go to Vegas and write a screenplay
throw everything out
give everything away
get a tattoo that says even this is a mistake
recklessness
shame
desire to just drive all night
drive all night
anger
sleeplessness
seeing a photo of a hot air ballon on fire
realization that no matter what, things could get super worse and I’m a huge baby
tattoo removal
list making