some of us have been to the edge
some of us have stared down into the big ugly
some of us have had the taste of darkness
jeanine has gone further and deeper and been places that should have never given her back to us.
but we are so lucky she is still here.
jeanine could drink more than any person i have ever met, and i know some drinkers.
she consumed more substances than even her former drug dealer boyfriend
(except pot. she hates pot.)
and she did this for years and years and years.
she was in the ICU on several occasions. french kissing death. saying comeon comeon comeon like kim gordon sneers in “kool thing”
but even death knew jeanine had more to do here, on this planet, with all of us.
and spit her back out.
then a miracle happened.
i was dating young amber smith blog and we discovered that jeanine and amber shared the same birthday
not only that but they had similar demons.
the miracle was that amber had gone through the steps that it took to rid her self of her evils and she was sweet enough to share that with her birthday sister.
amber coached me that i was doing everything wrong. she told me that i had to let jeanine go and do her own thing and she would find the true path alone.
it was scary but it worked. jeanine rode busses from the beach to DTLA to the valley to jump through all of the red tape that she needed to get help.
omg socialized help
which not only saved her life, but restored her to the jeanine we first knew and loved some two decades ago.
today jeanine is sober, healthy, happy, alert, aware, and full of life.
she is responsible and motivated and filled with happiness and joy and doing things she probably never thought she’d ever be doing like talking to her mom all the time, reading the bible, and just saying no.
it’s a transformation we all hoped would happen but never thought would take place so quickly and thoroughly, but Jeanine is the essence of quickness. she taught herself guitar and piano in days. she became a certified jeweler in months. and now she has her sights set to be a master chef. which she will accomplish, no doubt, in part, to honor her late brother.
i have had the great pleasure of knowing some of the most unique and special people in the world and jeanine continues to surprise me in beautiful ways. and i love her so much and im so happy for her because i can only imagine how tough it was for her to get here.
she has been on the craziest road and i thank God that she never gave up.
happy birthday Jeanine. here’s to many more.
and thank you and happy birthday Amber. without you who knows what would have happened to Jeanine.