took these century city dudes to a fancy restaurant

salvation

they all worked together. two of them were gay, one was indian,one kept quiet.

they were talking about bro names, which i deduced were office nicknames for each other.

after the ride was over, one of them apologized for the dirty talk that had also transpired

but i said, i’ll let you know if you say something you should apologize for.

a few minutes later i picked up this big black dude who was on the phone,

and he stayed on the phone the whole time.

he was having the hardest time with this chick he was on the phone with.

he kept saying hey if youd rather be doing whatever it is that youre doing just call me back

you keep giving me one word answers

do you want to just listen to your music

why dont you just call me back later

i wanted to tell him bro, let it go. if she wanted to talk, she’d talk.

then i got a guy in shorts and a headband who was all,

sorry this isnt that far of a ride, im late for a 5K.

i drove him exactly 1 mile.

sometimes i think im doing it wrong

fuk me fuk ui’ll see some old pictures of past loves or jobs or cars or situations

and i’ll say i wonder if i shoulda put up with their bs a little longer

i wonder if i shoulda done that one thing different

if only i had just not have said a word

what if you had just said fine.

and then i think of the other times, after that when i did

try

to be someone other than me.

if you’re bowling and the ball is veering to the left, you set up a little to the right

and sometimes if everyones not happy and smiling

you change it up a bit and see what happens.

what has happened is life has happened, the way its supposed to be

and the reason we are who we are is we

have

changed it up a little, naturally, due to the circumstances where we came from.

it’s crazy to call an audible for the sole reason of acceptance.

the purpose of the game is to play the game, not to be loved.

only god loves you. and your mom.

everything else is: well, he wont kill me or

damn she might kill me one day.

i take it all back: play the game the way you got to the game

if youre constantly calling audibles, fine. but figure out why.

do you really know the right move at the last second or are you just panicking.

odds are i made the right moves.

odds are you will too.

floor it and enjoy the ride.