today is flagrant disregards birthday, is she even alive?

interview with a modelit should be no surprise to any one who read this blog during its hey day that i still love and miss one flagrant disregard

aka splink

an anorexic ex model who was also an artist and fantastic blogger.

she was so private and freaked out that she would often delete posts and edit posts and over edit and over think but when she wrote it was right on the money like all the time.

she had a mysterious life of wealth and glamour and sadness and sadness and sickness.

was she even real? was it all a dream? or worse: a catfish?

she had a twitter for a while. she had a following. did she have an instagram? probs not. those were the olden days when ma would have to run out to the crank and the billy goat had to get strapped in before the internet would be able to get to the house. those were the days of blogger pro which meant you didnt know if your shit would get published when you hit publish. youd have to say a lil prayer. youd have to save your stuff offline first. you had to hope hope hope itd stay. the kids now nothing about that now.

they also dont know about the blogosphere. which is what provided an environment for people like flagrant and danielle and me and you and him and her and them. facebook doesnt let you really write. not like in a blog. and i know the kids wanna write. who doesnt wanna write. the cavemen didnt wanna just instagram.

i hope flagrant is still around. i hope shes alive. i hope shes lurking. once upon a time i saved a whole bunch of her posts and printed them out and stapled them together and put them in a box just so the next generation of humanoids would know what she was like in case the internet disappeared.

she did the meanest thing. she made it so the Wayback Machine couldnt find her. she did the second meanest thing. she didnt give me an exit interview. but she did the sweetest thing: she wrote from her heart for years. so sad it self destructed at the end of the message.

today is danielle’s birthday, shes 24

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the reason i believe in the Lord is because i was very depressed working at E! and the good Lord literally brought an angel to me.

from the very first time that we met we totally hit it off.

she was the most bubbly, alive person in the whole joint.

she made everything fun, even though none of it was fun

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her real job was to figure out with me how we were going to get her shows into the post production rooms

and in the studio.

so many of the people who i had to work with were not very fun because they too were depressed.

but when it was time for danielle to come down and work on the schedule it was a joy.

such a joy that we would have lunch almost every day and have beautiful photoshoots

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every now and then we would venture to my house for some reason

perhaps it was because she wanted some after-work Thai food

maybe it was so we could just get as far away from work as possible

and try new props for our shoots.

danielle

who knows, who cares. all i know is many of the pictures ended up on this blog and you all loved her as much as i did

and still do.

she is the only reason to visit san dieger. shes the only reason that boring place is still in the USA

i cant believe its been 24 years since shes moved down there.

in a perfect world shed move back up here and live next door to me and all will be well in the world again

but life doesnt spin that way. right now shes being an angel where its most needed.

so we should be grateful for the beautiful times we had together.

happy birthday danielle!!