1. Tuesday, June 25, 2019

    almost went outside today, but thought better of it 

    tomorrow i may have to do some walking.

    im watching mad men with amber. it’s her first time.

    don draper always reminds me that i talk too much and im wearing all the wrong suits.

    the drinking is heavier than i remembered it. and the smoking.

    was this supposed to be a parody?

    before amber moved in i had a bottle of wine or two, a jug of rum, maybe a few beers in the fridge.

    these people had entire bars available to them in every room.

    gen x may live to 200 years old if we dont ruin the planet first. we dont eat steaks. we pretty much never smoked. drank, but not like what im seeing on tv.

    gen x got you obama, and legal weed. dont you forget that. they coulda voted for mccain but didnt. sarah palin could have been a thing for more than a hiccup.

    as dylan said, it’s not dark yet, but it’s

    getting there.

    somehow ended up on the facebook page of the first girl i ever asked to be my gf.

    she said no bc she said her dad would killer bc im black.

    i cant even tell you how bizarre her page is.

    then i saw that she was remembering an old friend who had died a few years go

    then i looked at her page.

    my entire life is completely different

    by miles

    compared to what it could have been if i had stuck around in the past.

    some people have long chapters

    and theres something very special about that.

    me, im glad for this.

    whatever this is, im happy im in the middle of this

    any day.