my mom did the nicest thing anyones ever done
she went through excruciating pain to bring me into this world
when the doctor presented me
he told her, congratulations,
you have a blogger.
the bells of the church rang, pigeons scattered and not far away at the lincoln memorial,
honest abe quietly smiled and wished me to illinois
which is a perfect place to grow up, but
my mom made me cakes, invited my friends over, even sent them home with bags of treats and toys despite it being my birthday, thats just how it was. gift giving. sharing. leading by example.
one of the best gifts my mom ever gave me was patience. for generations our family went to and graduated college. quiet a feat for black families, but then there i was, dragging my feet academically through high school
with no real plan going into senior year other than maybe go to california and maybe go to junior college
it must have driven her crazy. even my friends who had crappier high school grades than i, hustled off to state schools and little colleges around the midwest
and that fall i sorta checked in to a city college, only to have to extend my time there beyond two years because
i couldnt write well.
any other parent, including hypothetical me, would have blown a gasket.
20 years old and cant pass a community college history class?
but she hung in there. “no pressure. you got this. you know youre not a dummy.”
i was reading paradise lost for fun while being an ice cream man
she believed in my weirdness, reluctantly, but she believed, and therefore i did too.
soon i was writing every day, for money, for all to see in the college paper.
winning awards, kissing girls.
all because my mom a million years ago said, fuck it, lets get this negro out
it cost her $200.
which i should write her a check for one day.