nothing in here is true

  1. Thursday, January 16, 2020

    i made this deal with amber 

    i have this problem sometimes when i forget that she is fighting the good fight and i need to turn it down a notch.

    i can be a little over the top.

    so i said, if i can be super chill for the whole day then i will circle the date on the calendar.

    today was the first day ive earned a circle.

    we went to the movies, saw Bombshell, it was ok.

    before that, In N Out. we went to Ashley Furniture who had great financing plans, zero per cent interest, 35% off, all these things.

    but the prices of the furniture was soooo high.

    i met a guy the other day whose uncle makes custom beds. he offered a bed with padding and faux diamonds on the headboard, plus mattress and box spring for $650. old ashley furniture wanted $2k.

    amber took one look at the joint and skeeved out. she didnt even want to play around on it. she was all, this is crazy. so we drove to the top of the parking garage, ate our lunch looking at the glendale mountains, listening to the radio, watching the rain clouds come

    and now it’s nighttime, and the rain is here. it sounds so good.

    i just finished most of my work transcribing my interviews about MLK

    shes watching You

    it’s filmed all around here.

    i have so much work to do in these next few days

    my neighbor threw out her cat playset.

    she got two.

    i rescued it.

    now my cats are so happy.

  2. Tuesday, January 14, 2020

    Palm reader came into my house 

    I was all, excuse me?

    She was like, are you busblog?

    how do you know my name?

    It’s written all over your face.

    But it says Post Malone!

    Where do you write?

    I said what?

    She said where do you write, this apartment is so tiny. I see no desk. I see a bed, piles of garbage, a kitchen table — do you write at the kitchen table?


    Then where? The coffee table? Do you bend over that sad little coffee table?


    So where?

    The bed.

    She didn’t believe me.

    I said read my palm. She said what did you do today. I said i read the newspaper the other day and the writer asked homeless people what they wanted and they said they wanted warm clothes and coats and blankets. So today i had my favorite winter coat. I think my mom bought it for me like 10 years ago at Coats Unlimited. Fuzzy Things N Stuff.

    What was it called? Something so weird.

    Burlington Coat Factory?


    You think that’s weird? She asked, looking through my junk drawers,

    This guy was setting up his sleeping spot. It was 630pm. I knew the coat was in the trunk because i had worn it somewhere and i marveled at how great a coat it was. But i thought i wear this 2x a year. he will wear it every day.

    he was so happy to have it.

    i asked his name, he said, William.

  3. Monday, January 13, 2020

    what if I change everything 

    what if there wasn’t a picture. What if no spaces

    No periods

    No future

    yesterday there was a shooting over by ambers work. either of us coulda been there.

    Beverly Hills.

    imagine that’s where you die.

    get to the pearly gates and they says can’t you read? And they point at a sign that says The Meek FTW

    and you have to explain no no I was just traveling through there. I live in a hovel.

    I like pictures tho. Took a few today.

    Took one of the camera store.

  4. Sunday, January 12, 2020

    the most important class I took in college 

    was not journalism- because it wasn’t offered

    it wasn’t creative writing – even though I loved those classes

    It was Bible as Literature

    in part because the Bible is quoted and misquoted constantly, and only the oddest IG the oddballs really know it.

    So it’s good to know too.

  5. Wednesday, January 8, 2020

    Let’s dance 

    I wrote a piece that got published yesterday but then Trump decided to play war games

    and i didn’t want twitter to be all

    omg WAR
    hey is the Eastside DTLA or Los Feliz?
    shit WAR

    I spent much of today looking for ways to charge my good camera

    I cant find the charger. I know i have it. I may even have two.

    And this is the perfect time to look because the house is clean

    But i dont wanna mess up the house digging through closets and under the bed

    But i think i may have to


    I actually have far more serious ones but nothing in here is true so let’s just believe that alls good in the hood.

    Speaking of, let me also play the Powerball before it’s too late.

    I wanna buy my momma a Malibu beach house.

  6. Monday, January 6, 2020

    do you know when it gets hardest 

    it gets hardest right before you break through

    if it was easier at this part, there would have already been a path

    some other chump would have kicked down the door.

    but it’s there and it’s heavy and it’s solid

    and it’s up to you to figure out how to get through it

    or around it

    or under it

    or over it.

    and in learning that trick, you can make it in the next levels and the next ones.

    right now it’s hard. no doubt. maybe super hard.

    but theres nothing that we cannot get through.

    video games teach us that. every one of them do.

    people say dont let kids play so many video games.

    i say let them play them all.

    but then quiz them about what they learnt.

    and i dont mean “i learned you gotta go left right left up up down.”

    i mean “i learned never give up. watch youtube, watch my friends, keep experimenting, dont be discouraged, take a deep breath. back up and Then run.”

    all of these games are here for our use.

    trust in the force.

  7. if you ask me imma tell you 

    which is interesting bc I once worked for a person who said they appreciated that I wasn’t a billshitter and asked me how something they said went over

    I said it didn’t go over perfectly but it wasn’t bad.

    I realize bullshitting is one of the things that separates us from apes but I don’t consider it noble.

    For example I’m glad my fuel gage doesn’t try to prevent my Feelings from being hurt. It just delivers the news and occasionally makes the news urgent.

    I try to do the same.

  8. Sunday, January 5, 2020