most of them are not hard but today was
i went to bed early and woke up early, that part was fine
had a nice business meeting where the boss said nice things about me to everyone.
that was fine.
later i watched videos of this guy traveling the world and he does it in his own non bs way
and its inspiring and i want to do that but in a smaller scope
so that was fine
but somewhere in the middle bad things happened
and i saw a guy smoking crack at a bus stop bench
first i passed him and tweeted about it
then i did things and came back an hour later and he was still playing with that pipe
mesmerized by it
so much so he didnt notice me shooting video of him
i hope to be in love with a woman one day as much as he was in love with that pipe
can love do that?
have i been in that sorta love?
ive stared into some eyes the way he was staring at the possibility of that tiny bulb
when people talk i look at their mouth
i know everything about their dentistry
but when i was an uber driver usually all i could see was their eyes
and now with these damn masks i melted into some eyes just the other day
but she was a sox fan
and we acknowledged right there that there would be no way
ive even forgotten her name because it is such an impossibility
but the real question is can someone my age truly become so obsessively in love as i did when i was younger
it is harder because back then you hadn’t done much so you imagine all the things love will be able to do for you
and you imagine all the things having a live-in naked partner could be like
and after a while you see what it really is
and worse you see how much you change in their presence
sometimes not for the best.
so can you fall hopelessly ever again?