i dont know why i didnt think i was smart enough to learn
actually i do
in school i was given mixed messages.
they said i “tested well” but then they’d give me crappy grades.
but when i did well, they put me in a special room or on the back of the class
with the smart kids
which to me was just as terrible as being in a place deemed Dumb Kids
i wanted to be with everyone.
id dabbled with this piece of software and that one now and then and i just couldnt work it
but for some reason, and i know im cheating because im doing wacky things with screen shots
and iphones and Instagram Stories and air drop and
not entirely Davinci Resolve
but today i made that video, and i did the Grammy Award transition so i wouldnt get dinged by the Grammys
and then i did the Rihanna bang at the end
plus i took that picture at the beginning and the end of Jeffs book shelf
and then tonight
because jordan was on a jet plane
i did some audio editing
i didnt like a sentence i said and a few words in another place
id been playing around with the In n Outs but it didnt really come together until i did it
in the audio track and voila
which is french for tony,
the apes have learned how to use weapons.
this couldnt have come at a better time.
speaking of time, that video up there took me 20 minutes.
the one a few days ago took me 6 hours.
also im back using my magic office room
which Emmanuelle called “le makeout closet”
for years it was amber’s man cave and can you believe it took me 8 months to claim it back,
WHAT WOULD THE SHRINK SAY ABOUT THAT?
i feel so incredibly good that i am learning things
i feel so grateful that i have the tools that i need
and a little time.