im depressed

worked hard the last few days on this podcast

and the thing is i know what im in for. im trying to make something out of

not nothing, but im upset that my interviews with relative unknowns are not popular.

i am having intelligent, interesting chats with normal people and

every week im surprised a thunderstorm of traffic doesn’t come racing to it.

for years ive studied this.

for years i was successful at this.

even at the academy when i presented normal people, bright as they were,

to the madding crowds it was met with yawns.

i am so idealistic its gonna kill me.

i want people to see the absolute beauty in these people.

love your neighbor.

today i got super depressed about global warming of all things.

i kept thinking, the worlds gonna end bc people just cant stop voting for republicans

or fucking people who vote for republicans.

both are unhelpful.

but then my brain would say, no no, the world will be fine

the people will die, the world will keep spinning and become healthier

the minute the last human has coughed themselves to death.

that minute.

ive talked to people who are buddhists pretty much.

theyd say just let it be

relieve yourselves of your attachments

who cares if the people die?

we have had plenty of chances to support more AOCs and defeat more GOPs

but this crowd just couldn’t

these fuckers couldnt be bothered with a vaccine for the plague!

so if anything this podcast is what i hope the aliens find

so they know not all of us

were terrible