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nothing in here is true

  1. Wednesday, July 23, 2014

    to dare too confidently or not dare at all? that is the question 

    vivian leigh in twelfth night

    Sir John Gielgud directed the play of Twelfth Night which starred Vivien Leigh and her husband Laurence Olivier. 

    Leigh was a manic depressive but Gielgud didn’t know how to work with that. Here’s something he wrote in his diary about entering the job of director of the play

    Perhaps I will still make a good thing of that divine play, especially if he will let me pull her little ladyship (who is brainier than he but not a born actress) out of her timidity and safeness. He dares too confidently … but she hardly dares at all and is terrified of overreaching her technique and doing anything that she has not killed the spontaneity of by overpractice.

    Maybe her OCD lead her to that terrible sin of overpractice?

    Since when is being prepared – or in this case over-prepared a bad thing?

    When it infringes on the magical moments when freestyling and improvising, even when rocking the eternal words of The Bard.

    As I approach my 560th birthday i have been thinking about writing an autobiography, a memoir of sorts.

    I feel like I’ve finally lived enough of a life to have some interesting tales to tell and I’ve learned a few valuable lessons.

    But the thing that keeps holding me back are the thoughts I have about some of the influential people of my life.

    Gielgud’s criticism of the two-time Oscar winner is fantastic. Who knew people thought that way, especially about her? But we’d never have that realization, especially today, if he hadn’t thrown her under the bus, in a way and wrote honestly in his own autobio.

    Any good bio has heavy doses of sex drugs and rock n roll and my first inclination is to write it and tuck it away somewhere until my death when it will be unearthed.

    But the problem with that is what if it’s misunderstood? Who would be around to set the record straight?

    What if it became a hit? Who would go on the book tour?

    Maybe I’m just as troubled as poor Scarlet. Doubt it. Maybe I should just wait to bust with it when I’m 600 and say fuck it here it is.

  2. Thursday, May 8, 2014

    dumbest man alive 

    rayban

    the phone kept ringing but the ringer was off.

    so i turned it on.

    tony pierce?

    who’s asking?

    guinness book.

    as in the beer?

    yes and the book.

    youre gonna offer me a beer?

    no we are letting you know you are the dumbest man alive.

    you dont think i knew this?

    well maybe you did, but now it’s official.

    perfect, thanks.

    and then they called me the n word.

  3. Friday, December 27, 2013
  4. Monday, March 25, 2013
  5. Wednesday, January 23, 2013

    Maybe little by little I’m fumigating 

    tommy lee jones

    Nick Tosches being interviewed in Esquire this month…

    Scott Raab: The theme apparent in all your books is, to me, a fearless quest for what’s at the heart of human knowledge.

    Nick Tosches: We’re finite creatures, doomed to never get a fraction of what wisdom it would take to deal with infinity. This book has a lot to do with the unbelievable power and beauty of that almost unattainable freedom. Since none of us really gets to know it, we don’t know what extremely powerful dangers might lurk in it.

    SR: One of the things that I’ve seen more often in your writing recently is an idea best expressed in Ezra Pound’s line “Do not move, Let the wind speak.”

    NT: Those words of Pound, the “120th Canto,” say it all. You’re never gonna outwrite the movement of the white clouds and the blue sky. You’re never going to. There are times when I try to write beautifully, but I don’t know if I’m trying to exorcise my own demons. If I am, there are other ones lurking beneath, because they keep coming out. Maybe little by little I’m fumigating.

    SR: I think exorcising them is out of the question. Who are you without your demons?

    NT: That’s probably true, but it’s not a truth that we wanna just accept flatly. Look at it like this: This is the most fucked-up species that ever pissed on this planet. What do we have? We have three “one true” gods. Count ‘em. Three. And underlying everything is this question: Did man invent good and evil before he invented the gods to protect him from evil, or did he invent the gods first in order to say, “Look, I don’t want anybody fucking my wife, so you’re gonna go to hell if you do that”? All these acts of cowardice, all these gods. We’re just completely fucked up. This is a race of demons.

  6. Tuesday, January 8, 2013

    first book imma read all the way thru in 2013 is gonna be xTx’s 

    billie the bull

    this summer after “knowing” each other a good 20-30 years
    xTx and i finally met each other IRL at a holiday party in the sky

    people say that they see me or saw me or thought they saw me
    which is fine since i dont really keep that many things private

    but when i got the txt from her that she saw me
    standing on a balcony
    i looked around and said
    i suppose I AM on a balcony right now!
    (6845 del playa, fyi)

    and soon we were actually meeting each other in real life
    and it was very nice.

    today her new book
    billie the bull came out and the postman delivered mine today
    and i cant wait to put it in my pocket
    roll my laundry down to lucy’s
    and do my damn wash and read
    billie the bull!

    little books in 2013!!!!

  7. Saturday, October 20, 2012
  8. Tuesday, September 18, 2012

    hey danielle 

    remember that thing that i said you should do for 45 days?

    and you should write a book about it?

    i started it last night.

    perhaps we should do it together.

    perhaps your book and my book can be sold together.

    mooshed perfectly.

    or maybe when you flip over the one book, you see the other book.

    then we can go on the today show together and yuck it up with matt lauer.

    you’ll win him over and all the viewers will make us rich.

    anyways i started last night and its…. interesting.

    thats for sure.

  9. Saturday, July 21, 2012

    today is ernest hemingways birthday, hes 24 

    ernest hemingway

    the problem many kids encounter is theyre given hemingaway way too early

    and teachers show off the wrong book.

    if you give a freshman or sophomore high school boy “the old man and the sea”

    a book about subtleties and nuance – youre gonna bore the kid to death

    and youre going to forget that young people are full of life

    and distracted.

    sun also rises, maybe, but i would stick to the Nick Adams Stories

    id do something like “the short happy life of francis macomber”

    a short tale that was originally published in Cosmopolitan back in ’36

    (i know, seriously)

    a story that represents all of hemingways themes of failed relationships

    machismo, foreign lands, and courage.

    in college i would teach them garden of eden, an unfinished novel

    who scribners and sons cut 2/3rds from before they released it

    (i know, seriously)

    thats a love story about a man, his wife,

    and, um, a second woman.

    ok, fine, maybe grad school.

    happy birthday papa!

    “Today is only one day in all the days that will ever be. But what will happen in all the other days that ever come can depend on what you do today.”

  10. Monday, July 9, 2012

    i got to say hello to Sapphire today 

    sapphire and patt morrison

    she is the woman who wrote “Push”

    otherwise known as “Precious”.

    she was very sweet and still i was nervous to say something

    that i was pretty sure either she wouldnt believe

    or would be very happy to hear.

    which was

    “ive only read like 5 books all the way through over the last 5 years

    and yours was one of them.”