nothing in here is true

  1. Saturday, October 19, 2019

    tony what if it doesnt get better 

    then it doesnt.

    but it does.

    it always does.

    and always will.

    if you think things that are negative

    it just means that yr in the middle

    of IT

    and the middle of it sucks.

    so what yr seeing isnt it

    it’s just the middle passage

    the part where weird stuff happens

    which is also the part

    where change occurs







    your beginning the beguine, cole

    yr taking em to the bridge, john paul

    im reading the edward snowden book right now. he’s such a smart guy. it’s hard to tell what happened it’s so early in the book but he just mentioned something that i have mentioned here before.

    he is talking about how Super Mario Bros taught him so much about life.

    i feel the exact same way.

    and whats weird about that game is i never owned it.

    i was in college when it came out and we were living a block from the beach, classes were incredible, i had a radio show, i was in the newspaper every day,

    the streets were literally crawling with the prettiest girls you could imagine

    bands were playing on rooftops, in back yards, in front yards, in barns

    i had no need or time for a video game, but there it was in my house that i shared with several others

    and despite the fact that i was studying zen, romantic poets, the old testament, and milton

    while reading every bukowski i could find in the library on the side

    there was super mario brothers with its little 8 bit music and the shittiest controller in history

    and it was teaching me everything:

    life is a dance

    watch out for the bosses

    shit gets real, then it gets easier, then it gets harder

    everything you’re doing is for a woman, so enjoy the journey

    might as well jump

    but it also taught me that every day that you learn something will help you in your battles tomorrow.

    because as random as life is, there are patterns, learn them.

    experiment with who you think you are.

    everything is relative to how you approach things.

    and also: time is not on your side.

    so, hustle.

    snowden mostly focused on that last part. time. that time is short.

    thus, when you feel like you should act, maybe you should.